Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Happy Birthday Erich!!!

You would be turning 30 years young today big bro!!!
Time of Your Life by Green Day is one of the song that was played in a video we made in honor of my brother. We showed this video at his viewing/funeral. Every time I hear it on the radio it reminds me of him. It was one of his favorite songs. Although every time I hear it, it makes me cry.
I know every memory Erich shared with those he loved was the time of his life. I know he cherished every.single.moment. he lived.
Erich had the time of his life :)

Another turning point
a fork stuck in the road

Time grabs you by the wrist
directs you where to go

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
in good health and good time

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I remember all your birthdays we shared together. I loved watching you open gifts and hearing the crazy sounds you would make because you just received the best gift ever. Tongue sticking out, making a super loud noise. I would give anything to hear that again.
I specifically remember your 21st birthday. We went to Wood Ranch in Moorpark. The family went and then you had two guys from the seminary come too...Mark and the cute one (can't remember his name for the life of me, Ryan??? Oh I don't know). Anyways, we all went to one of the most yummy restaurants back home. You were so deteremined to get something 'manly' to drink, it was hilarious. So they talked you into getting a dark Sam Adams. You thought it was just plain nasty :) I am so with you by the way...I hate dark beer. You had something else but I cannot remember what. Although I do remember you being a little bit tipsy that night...good for you, that is what you are supposed to do when you hit the big 2-1 :-)
After that I think you became the family alcoholic an avid drinker. You were a pro at drinking and hilarious too!!! David was oh so proud of you :-) He eventually claimed me as the family alcoholic avid drinker. Now it is Aarika. Although I know for a fact Kelley and Lauren could drink us all under the table :)
We would be having a super crazy ass party for you if you were with us. It would probably be the biggest birthday bash EVER!!! Mom for sure would go all out...as usual :) And the most important dish there would be fritos and bean dip, so you and I could chow down on it :) Don't worry we will still have a party for you, we are going out to dinner. Not sure where, I will think of some place you would love or at least the type of food, being that we are in wonderful Texas and not at home. Whatever place we decide, I will for sure have a drink or two or three for you :) I am thinking a shot of some sort...to celebrate your 24 years of life you shared with us here on earth and your 30 years that you have been in all our hearts, ok well not mine for 30 years, but you get the point.

Now let's see what I need to catch you up on...
~David and Allie are pregnant. The little babe is due in June, so they post-poned their wedding till unknown ;) Can you believe David is gonna be a dad?!?!? Crazy huh? I know he would give anything for you to be here to meet the little babe (sex unknown). But David knows you are watching over him and will watch over their kiddo :)
~Laur went off to college at Humbolt. So proud of her!! She is the only one of us 5 siblings that actually went away to school. Keep a watch on her, make sure she stays our lil laur :)
~Watch over Aarika. She needs you, especially right now. She is going through some hard times and needs guidance. She is strong, but at times she is so weak and I really worry about her right now. She misses you more than words could ever describe. You know she keeps a photo of you and her in her car...right where all the gages are on the dashboard. I love driving her car and seeing that photo. It definitely puts a smile on my face :)
~Make sure Kell stays focused on school. She is one smart cookie, but a boy sometimes distracts her and leads her in the wrong direction. Kell misses you a lot, she loves talking about you and hearing stories about you. Whenever we have those conversations she laughs so hard and it totally makes me think of you. She opens her mouth so wide, just like you always did when you laughed.   

~One big thing we missed out on while we are down here in Texas is that every.single.family.member. was home for Christmas this year. Yup. you heard me right...everyone. Except us!!! I was so disappointed and bummed out. Spending this Christmas away from home was so difficult for me. I missed going to the cemetary on Christmas Eve to visit you. That is one of the only days I am ok with going there.

~Tony & I are doing great. We aren't thrilled living with mom, Jim and Aarika. But it is what it is right now. But out relationship is great!! I wish you could have met him, he is amazing. I know you two would get along great. We tell him stories about you. He asks questions about you. You would be brothers...you are brothers :)

More things will continue to happen, so don't worry I will keep you updated. You know our crazy family always has drama going on. I haven't watched the video we played at your funeral since the 2nd year anniversary. Momma watches it every year and I hear it playing, but I just cannot get myself to watch it.
I keep telling Tony I want to watch it with him so he can see what we did in honor of you, but I can't get myself to actually do that. I don't know if it is because I am afraid to cry and cry and cry. I don't know if it is because I am afraid to see a million pictures of you and miss you even more than I thought was possible. I don't know if is because I am afraid to hear your voice on the video. I don't know. I want to share it with Tony and I want to watch it again...how do I get the strength to?!?
Aarika just told me we are going out for Mexican tomorrow, so I will be sure to have a two margaritas for you and chips and salsa because I know your love for those :)
I miss you Erich. I think about you every.single.day. I think about all the memories we shared and I can hear your crazy laugh and see your huge smile. I know you are watching over us and keeping us safe.
Happy 30th Big Bro :-)
I love you!!!



Eric's Mommy said...


Jamie said...

Wishing Erich a happy, happy 30th birthday! Erich was a very special person to all of us too! When I hear Chariots of Fire, I think of Erich. I can imagine him running around.

Love ya,


Megan said...

What a beautiful post!! It is obvious that he was SO loved and SO happy while he was here!

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

What a sweet, wonderful post in memory of your brother. I am sure that he knows he is loved! :)

molly said...

Happy Birthday E!

love you guys!

Victoria said...

this was very touching. Happy Birthday to your brother!

Sharon said...

Lindsay you always write the most special and amazing posts about Erich..I think you write your best when you are talking of Erich. He must inspire you...lol. How I wish he were here with us living in Texas - but everyone says he is a much more baeautiful place...BELIEVE! thats what we must all do. I miss the family we had with him ... we must build a family with him in our hearts. I love you. Happy day Erich!

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

What a beautiful post :-) How special!