Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday Erich!
Hard to believe you would be 31 this year. I swear time goes by just too fast.
One minute we were little kids playing in the yard. The next we are adults dealing with real life shit.

I had my ovary removed 2 weeks ago. I was scared/nervous out of my mind. I was talking to dad about it and he calmed me down. Said to me that would Erich be complaining or bitching....nope. He didn't let anything stop him or get him down. Keep your head up.
That's what dad said.
So I know you were with me. Watching over me. Protecting me.
When I was in the hospital and Tony was sitting there with me...I was talking to him a bit about you and how often you were in the hospital. Seriously....the worst thing was the bed. How on earth did you ever get comfy?!? LOL It was shitty to say the least.

So much happens in our lives Erich. So much I wish you could share with us. But I know you are always with me. Mom. Dad. Sisters. You are watching over us. There are days where I just need to talk to you, but I turn the radio on and it never fails that
Knocking on Heaven's Door comes on....that is how I know you are with me.
Talking to me.

Dad has brought you up more recently. So to me that is nice that I can kinda talk to him about you. But I know it is extremely hard for him. He is hurting, so I just go at his pace.

I think about you all the time. Many little things remind me of you. Some others would get a kick out of. Some just you and I would understand. I wish we could be celebrating your 31st birthday together. We all love to spoil one an other on our birthdays. Maybe I'll convince Tony I need to celebrate in honor of you ;)
I remember your 21st birthday...when you drank dark beer for the first time. That was hilarious!!
You didn't like it at all. I think you were a hard liquor kind of guy, not a beer guy.

Erich, I miss you terribly. I know I will see you again one day, but I just wish you would come wheeling through my front door asking for a snack. Wanting to chat. That is my most treasured time with you...
chatting over food :)

I love you!
I know you are celebrating like crazy in heaven.

Happy Birthday!!!
Love your Angel in Mercy


mojo said...

thinking of you all today--
love you guys

Faith said...

happy birthday to your dear brother. it is beautiful that you remember him in such a special way. that is the best thing about memories. they get to be with you forever :)

Tami said...

Hugs to you girl! I'm sure Erich is celebrating his birthday with Jesus!

Jamie said...

Happy Birthday, Erich!

Love, Jamie and the Family

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

Happy birthday to your brother! I'm sure he is smiling down at you :)

Eric's Mommy said...

Happy Birthday Erich!