Tuesday, March 13, 2012

on my mind

A lot has been on my mind lately. Things I don't need to get into specifics about. But it is things that I find myself comparing to others. Why is it that we all, or most of us at least, compare our lives to other peoples lives.

The things others have. The stages of life others are at. How things go so well for others, or so it seems. How everything falls into place for everyone around you...just not you.

I hate feeling that way, but this week I am at that place. That place where I hate being.

I know everyone struggles. We all go through rough patches. Things aren't working out how we think they should. But we {I} immediately think it is only happening to me. I know that isn't true, but that is just the feel sorry for myself attitude I have this week.

Many things happen in our lives that we cannot control. Whatsoever. There are other things we can control. Things we can change. Things we can make better. I am at that place. I need to make things better. I need to not be negative about things and be grateful for all we have.

I need to support my husband in everything he has done or will do. I need to encourage him. Not nag him or stress him out by saying stupid shit. Yup, I do that. Apparently some times too much. But I am learning to change that aspect of myself.

Anyways...

Tony and I are a team. We have made choices. We have each made stupid choices. We have each made great choices. We are a team. We are one. So those choices/decisions affect both of us now. And you know...there isn't much that we can do about it.

With that being said, I need to be more optimistic. More encouraging. More glass half full.

Our life isn't terrible or horrible. Our life together is amazing. Of course we struggle. Every couple does. Every family struggles. I know this. We have a roof over our heads.We are finally on our own. Enjoying what we have together. I need to be grateful for what I have been given. I am. I really am. I just have my moments...

Things will work out for us. It is in God's timing. He doesn't give us more than we can handle. I truly believe this. We have gone through quite a bit individually and together. We are a strong couple.
Whatever God's plan is, we will be happy.

8 comments:

Eric's Mommy said...

I am in the same boat dear, I know how you feel! Hang in there :)

Joeylee said...

Hang in there girl. I did a post about this same topic nit to long ago so I know exactly how your feeling.

Ashley said...

It is these struggles that strengthen you and surprise you. They make you grow and grow closer together. Hang in there, stick it out, things will get better soon. Life is like a puzzle and sometimes it is hard to find the missing piece to make things easier! Good luck!

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

This Quote I have on my computer desktop to remind myself that sometimes I am crazy!

“One of the reasons we struggle with insecurity is because we’re comparing our ‘behind the scenes’ with everybody else’s ‘highlight reel.’”

Everything happens for a reason and enjoy the ride you are on! And remember you aren't alone!

Kai.Mercado. said...

I am pretty sure I have been EXACTLY where you are...and believe me when you say you are not alone. You will come out of this struggle stronger! Stay positive girl!

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Nicole - Craft My Soul said...

I couldn't have said it better myself. You took the words right out of my mouth. Yes, there are people who go through the same stuff that you are going through. And... I say stupid shit to my guy too.. and feel completely guilty about it instantly. Gosh why am I such a biotch sometimes? I have always believed in being positive... but lately I have neglected to be. Thank you, thank you truly for this post.

Mrs. V said...

I feel like I could be reading this post from my own blog. I know exactly how you feel. It's so hard not to look at other people's lives and not compare, but that's the worst thing we can do. When we think about our lives on an individual level they're great, but compared to someone else's they may only look mediocre. Good luck figuring out this crazy life!

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

I've been going through very similar thoughts/feelings. I love your attitude of just waiting for God's timing to come through. It's something I really need to focus on as well. Hang in there!