Thursday, March 21, 2013

A Brief Moment

{written last night}

When I walked out of work tonight. Instantly I felt the warmth of spring/summer. It was 5p and it was perfect evening weather. As soon as I stepped off the little ledge onto the asphalt the door closing behind me, I felt something.

I felt my brother. Walking with me. Enjoying the nice weather with me. Then he left....

But for that brief moment of walking to my car, all I could think about was how much he loved nights like this. Nights were he would sit outside {and not freeze}. Alone. Taking it all in. 'It' being life, I assume.

Throughout the last 7.5 years, I think about my brother on daily basis. There is not a day that goes by that something doesn't remind me of him. Be it a song. A smell. The weather. That is when I know he is with me.

Sometimes I smile. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I am just quite. Sometimes I have to talk to someone about it. Tell a story about him. 

As I sit here and type this, I have tears running down my face. Tears because I miss him. Tears because I know he is watching over me. Tears because the spring and summer were his favorite months. 

I know not everyone I know has lost someone significant in their lives. But when you do, these moments will mean so much to you. Moments where you know they are with you. Even if it is for a brief moment. You feel at peace. 

I miss you every.single.day. There is so much in this crazy world that reminds me of you... I love you!!

4 comments:

Sharon Dugan said...

I love knowing that you felt his presence. What an amzing feeling that must have been. I wait for that day, sometimes I think I try toohard for it. I loved the realtionship you and Erich had, it was beautiful to be a witness to that. I know how much you miss him. Love you

Lindsay said...

beautifully written my friend. He is your angel :)

Mallory said...

What a wonderful moment you had.

Sometimes I look at Bailey's hands and see my Nana's hands (who she is named after) and other times I get a whiff of my Pawpaw's scent and it brigns a smile to my face.

These moments are wonderful, painful, sweet, and emotional. Glad you take the time to feel them!

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