Thursday, September 26, 2013

A Step Forward

I went to to a new doctor about 2 weeks ago. A female doctor, for the first time! :)

And I finally got some answers. Well, sorta...
I explained my entire history. I went over my surgery. I told her how I have no pain. Never had. I feel like all this was just accidental. And when I say accidental, sometimes I wish I never would have accidentally found out I had a cyst. It has been a constant struggle for almost two years now. Telling the doctor, trying to hold back tears, how badly I want to be a mom. Asking her if it will happen soon. Knowing that it might be even more of a struggle. 

It is hard.
Being a woman is hard.
We can all relate to each other in some way or another.
But then there are those situations where only some people understand. Those that have been through the exact, or almost exact, situation.

I am infertile. We have been trying to get pregnant for over a year and a half. We have been unsuccessful, obviously. The doctor flat out told me infertile. I was expecting to hear it, but when you actually do. It's different. It's more real. It is my fault we don't have kids yet.

This new doctor immediately made the moves to push forward. To see what is really going on. No lolligagging. 

In a nutshell:

I need to get an HSG procedure done. A procedure where the radiologist injections a contrast into my uterus, to see if it flows out through my fallopian tube. My only fallopian tube. If it does, awesome! We are thrilled, maybe a few tears shed by me. If it is not. It is because of my terrible endometriosis. It may have clogged the tube. 

If it is blocked, then the only other option is IVF. read that right. We may have to do in-vitro. I have to say I was a little shocked that those words came out of her mouth. I never thought getting pregnant would cost us a small fortune. 

I called yesterday to schedule the appointment for this procedure and was totally annoyed. I didn't realize there were so many steps, so to speak. I have to call to make the appointment day 1 of my period. Test has to be done about 10 days later, no more. I have to have a physical within 30 days before the procedure. I have to have a pregnancy test done the day of, by my doctors. No sex 4 days prior to procedure. If I am bleeding still on the day of the procedure, I have to cancel and wait until the following month. The hospital I am authorized to get it done at, only does it at 1:30p or 2:30p Monday through Friday.

Say what?!?!?

It was just a little to much for me to take in today and I got super annoyed. Had I gotten my referral a few days ago, I could have had the procedure yesterday!! So yea...a little discouraging. Now I gotta wait until month and figure out a time during my externship at a different hospital. 

But, I am trying to be positive. For the most part I am. I am grateful things are actually moving forward. We will have answers soon. Being that the Radiologist does the procedure, I will know right away. Kinda nerve wracking too though. For obvious reasons. 

So now we wait. I have never been more anxious for my period to come. Again. Who wishes for their period to come?!?! I will be counting the days :)


Caitlin said...

First off, I am so happy you are seeing a new doctor! One that has answers, even if they are not what you want to hear. She sounds like she is trying to help you out and figure this thing out!

That whole process does seem quite the struggle, but I know you will do what you need to see where this goes! I'll be sending prayers and hope that everything goes right the first time through!!

Rebekah said...

I am so excited that you're starting this! I know it's hard to hear the word infertile from the doctor but at least you have someone who will actively work with you and that's the most important thing! I'll be praying that you're able to start things quickly because that just means you're one step closer to answers and a plan. Sometimes this journey isn't what we ever saw for ourselves but my advice is to take it one step at a time. I was always ready to jump to step 10 and figure out where to go from there. I'm thinking of you!

Sara Lynn said...

I am so glad you are finally getting answers! I will keep you in my prayers and hope everything will be great!! :) Keep your head up high girl!

Holly said...

So excited that you're being able to move forward. I know you are anxious. I will definitely be praying for you, hubby, and future baby(s??). Yay!!

Kristina said...

I am glad that this new doc is finally giving you some answers. Thinking of you! I agree. It is hard to be a woman sometimes. I lost 3 pregnancies last year. It was awful. There is a positive to everything and after losing our babies we are finally pregnant. Good things happen to good people. It will happen for you too.

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

So glad you are heading in the right direction with the right people helping you out! My good thoughts and prayers are being sent your way! You have a sweet, supportive and loving husband who will support you no matter what. Do what is best/right for you and keep on the path that you know is right for you and your future.

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