And I finally got some answers. Well, sorta...
I explained my entire history. I went over my surgery. I told her how I have no pain. Never had. I feel like all this was just accidental. And when I say accidental, sometimes I wish I never would have accidentally found out I had a cyst. It has been a constant struggle for almost two years now. Telling the doctor, trying to hold back tears, how badly I want to be a mom. Asking her if it will happen soon. Knowing that it might be even more of a struggle.
It is hard.
Being a woman is hard.
We can all relate to each other in some way or another.
But then there are those situations where only some people understand. Those that have been through the exact, or almost exact, situation.
I am infertile. We have been trying to get pregnant for over a year and a half. We have been unsuccessful, obviously. The doctor flat out told me infertile. I was expecting to hear it, but when you actually do. It's different. It's more real. It is my fault we don't have kids yet.
This new doctor immediately made the moves to push forward. To see what is really going on. No lolligagging.
In a nutshell:
I need to get an HSG procedure done. A procedure where the radiologist injections a contrast into my uterus, to see if it flows out through my fallopian tube. My only fallopian tube. If it does, awesome! We are thrilled, maybe a few tears shed by me. If it is not. It is because of my terrible endometriosis. It may have clogged the tube.
If it is blocked, then the only other option is IVF. Yup...you read that right. We may have to do in-vitro. I have to say I was a little shocked that those words came out of her mouth. I never thought getting pregnant would cost us a small fortune.
I called yesterday to schedule the appointment for this procedure and was totally annoyed. I didn't realize there were so many steps, so to speak. I have to call to make the appointment day 1 of my period. Test has to be done about 10 days later, no more. I have to have a physical within 30 days before the procedure. I have to have a pregnancy test done the day of, by my doctors. No sex 4 days prior to procedure. If I am bleeding still on the day of the procedure, I have to cancel and wait until the following month. The hospital I am authorized to get it done at, only does it at 1:30p or 2:30p Monday through Friday.
It was just a little to much for me to take in today and I got super annoyed. Had I gotten my referral a few days ago, I could have had the procedure yesterday!! So yea...a little discouraging. Now I gotta wait until month and figure out a time during my externship at a different hospital.
But, I am trying to be positive. For the most part I am. I am grateful things are actually moving forward. We will have answers soon. Being that the Radiologist does the procedure, I will know right away. Kinda nerve wracking too though. For obvious reasons.
So now we wait. I have never been more anxious for my period to come. Again. Who wishes for their period to come?!?! I will be counting the days :)