Wednesday, October 16, 2013

see you again some day....

October 16 is a hard day for me. Actually the days leading up to it as well.
My body is taken over my emotions, sadness, heartache.
Eight years ago, our lives were flipped upside down.
The day my best friend was taken from me.
Twenty four is just too young....
{about 10 years old}

My last day spent with him was spent like any other Saturday. 
Full of  food, laughter, talking, football....everything he loved.

There are so many days that go by where I am waiting for his phone call. Or for him to come by. Not that he himself could drive, but his nurses could bring him over. I so badly wish he could be here to see us grow up. To be part of our family now, not just then. 

But...I try. I try to think of how proud he would be of all of us. Even the little mistakes we make 
along the way....

I am really struggling with words today. I just cannot get past the tears streaming down my face.

Erich...you know how I feel. I know you are with me. Watching over me. Laughing with me...or at me, depending ;)
I hate that you have missed growing up with us, being adults with us. Sharing in crazy memories. So much has changed. But that's life I guess, right.
So we will celebrate your life extra today. Your amazing life, that I got to be part of for 21 years.
I hold your memories close. I share them as often as possible.
I love you!
 I'll see you again someday....



8 comments:

Caitlin said...

<3 <3 Sending prayers your way today.

mojo said...

Thinking of you all today and always...
xoxo
love always,
Molly

Kristina said...

Sending positive, healing thoughts your way!

Holly said...

Thinking of you and praying for you and your family today. You were so lucky to have him, and he was lucky to have you...

Laura McCallum said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Big hugs <3 xxx

Elizabeth said...

This was beautifully written. It sounds like he was lucky to have you in his life. (and the other way around too!)

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

I think it is great that he is still such a big part of your life. I am sure that he is with you every day being proud of your and loving you, even it is from afar. Definitely sending lots of warm thoughts your way!

Kendra Pahukoa said...

this is really beautiful. i stumbled upon this post today for a reason i suppose. 3 years ago today i lost a family member and am missing her dearly. i too hate that i cannot call her, share with her and have her to grow with our family as well.
thanks for sharing. glad i stopped by. :)