friday five

// It has been quite cold here the last few days. And for this southern cal girl who is all about tank tops and flip flops...even in the rain....it is just far too cold. Especially when I don't own heavy enough jackets or long sleeves or beanies or gloves. It is cold!!!
But then I get this picture from my sister in Texas, and thank the heavens I'm not in it. Although, being cuddled up by the fire with some hot coffee and good movies and watching the snow fall sounds absolutely perfect.

// I haven't been in the workout mood all week. Of the 5 days I have worked out 2. I'm being a slacker, but man I have been exhausted and the last thing I want to do it get up out of my cozy warm bed. Major lack of motivation for this one.

// How cute is this Christmas sign. 

// Speaking of Christmas, there is only 19 days left. We have our tree, gifts wrapped, cinnamon pine cones, yummy candles. We have been ready for a while. And best of all, I have Celion Dion These Are The Special Times along with Neil Diamonds Christmas albums blasting in my car. I love it!!

// It is going to be a great weekend. I know there are some things planned by the husband and mom {whose in town} for my birthday and I'm super excited. But a little nervous after a few questions Tony has asked recently. We will see.... I'll be sure to post about it next week.

Happy Friday and a fabulous weekend!

linking up with Natasha

I'm scarred...I still hear screaming

At the hospital, we had to do a stat scan on a patient who just walked in, about 39 weeks pregnant with zero prenatal care. She was dilated 4cm and in pain. Now I am not just talking about being uncomfortable but like full blown pain.

And she was a tad bit too late to receive an epidural.

I have never in my life, hear someone scream so loudly. Her contractions were about 3 minutes apart. She was just clearly not having it. Seeing her face, watching her cry, hearing her pain...it literally scarred me.

How in the world do people do this?!?! How do you deal with that amount of pain?!?!

I'm scarred. I can still hear her screaming!! :-/

A couple weeks ago I saw a c-section. That was the craziest, coolest, thing I have seen in quite some time. It is just nuts how they literally takes your parts out of your body, flop them on your belly, clean you out, and sew you back together. Like no big deal. Oh and they pull a 6 plus pound baby out of you. Crazy!!

Next on the list...vaginal birth. I hope it happens soon, I'm kinda anxious to see how that plays out. I am sure it is just as interesting and crazy. A baby coming out of your who-ha! I cannot imagine!! It scares the crap out of me....but I don't think that will stop me from having a kid or two.

Totally loving my externship experience thus far. Seeing far more than I ever imagined.

hello december!

Happy Best Month Ever!!!

My birthday and Christmas within 16 days of each other.... doesn't get much better!

Although...

This is the last week of my 20's. I will no longer be a twenty-something.
I am headed into the big leagues of the third decade of my life. And I'm not too sure how I feel about this.
I am scared out of my mind to be getting older. That may sound so lame, but it's so true.
I am excited to see what this first year of being a thirty year old will bring me.
I am nervous to get more wrinkles and gray hairs. Thank God for anti-aging cream & hair dye.
I am happy to be entering another year of this precious life we are all given. To be sharing it with those that mean the most to me...near and far.

I hear 30 is the new 20...someone please confirm this! ;)

Now that I got that out of the way...

Thanksgiving was pretty low key in these parts. It was just two sisters and us. Nothing crazy. Totally relaxing. Obviously delicious. 

These were all the photos I got  ::insert sad face::

I honestly have no idea what we did Friday. All I know is we made pizza for dinner. Sounds super exciting, I know ;) Oh yea, I remember...I met up with some girl friends to get fitted for bridesmaid dresses. On my way home from the crazy rain, I saw this pretty little rainbow :)

Saturday night was date night to Universal City Walk.
Buffalo wings, steaks, a Long Island the size of a milk pitcher.
A free shot because it is the week of my birthday. #winning!!

Sunday morning we sat outside at Starbucks basking in the 80 degree weather for about two hours. It was pure heaven. I enjoyed one of my favorite holiday drinks...Salted Caramel Mocha. If you haven't tried it, go now! I promise you won't be disappointed ;) Tony had a wonderful idea to brave the mall nearby...and shockingly it wasn't packed at all. Like at.all. So bizarre. But good for us :) I bought myself some Christmas presents at Victoria Secret. Then we headed out to get our Christmas tree. Brought it home, decorated and of course watched Miracle on 34th Street. Family tradition.

A new sandwich market opened up down the street and I have been so eager to try it...Mendocino Farms. O-M-G!! For all you sandwich lovers, go now! It was delicious and fresh and I am sure we will now become regulars. I got the Turkey Avocado. Delicious! Tony got the Turkey Meatball. Tasty!
And one of the best parts, it is close enough to walk. Love being in walking distance of so many things.

The evening consisted of Christmas movies galore and a bottle of wine ;)
Happy December!!

linking up with Sami.

a night out

What better way to start the work week, with knowing that you only have to go for 3 days?!?!? It's like we don't even have to countdown to the weekend because it will be here in less than 72 hours. Booyah!! But this weekend came and went just a little too fast... as usual.

Saturday night we went out with some new friends. The techs I shadow at the hospital invited us out for one of their birthdays. That means they like me right?!? ;) I think the answer is yes! Which is awesome, because I love hanging out with them. Anyways, so we went to Wood Ranch BBQ for dinner and then to PINZ for bowling. We stayed out until 2am. I call that a win! I only took two photos, we were too busy drinking and having fun ;) 

Sunday we slept in until 10am. Who the heck am I?? I haven't slept until 10am since God knows how long. But it felt glorious and we sure needed it after the night before. So we got up and were kind of lazy to start. I ran to Starbucks for some quick coffee and breakfast.
We finally got up and at 'em, to run the normal Sunday errands. Anyone else do everything on Sundays?? I have no idea when this became chore and errand day, but it is...every single weekend.
I am trying to actually get dressed and presentable on the weekends since during the week I wear my hair up and in a messy bun. I am no fashionista or anything, but I think I'm doing ok. At least that's what the husband is telling me. Not sure if you can see but I'm wearing my gray target booties. I love me some booties!
Sunday night consisted of some nail biting episodes of Sons of Anarchy and The Walking Dead, with a bottle of white wine to calm our nerves :) A great weekend for the books!

Hope you all had a fabulous weekend! And are ready to tackle this 3 day work week in preparation to stuff your face and get your shopping on come the weekend ;)

linking up with sami

baby making

We are another step closer in this baby making process.

{if this is tmi, sorry...this is for my own keepsake}

I completed my first round of 50mg Clomid on Wednesday. With what I think the only side effect was bloat and a tad bit of moodiness. Other than that, I didn't notice I was on any meds. But... once I start ovulating we will see if I experience pain or discomfort, because I have heard some follicles can get pretty large. Fingers crossed I don't even notice.

Being on a medication to help get pregnant is kind of an odd feeling. I never thought I would need help. I cannot believe I am actually moving forward with having a kid {even though everyone I know has a least one}. Am I old enough?!?! Don't answer that! The thought of being parents scares me, but excites me and thrills me all at the same time.

I have dreamed about becoming a mom for as long as I can remember. Picking out decor for a nursery. All the cute clothes, especially now that Pinterest is around. Holy mother of all things cuteness!!! 

In time. Right?!? Patience. I need to be patient. I'm trying to be patient. 

This weekend I start tracking my ovulation. Not really excited about this part. I have done this before with the little smiley face pee sticks, which the doctor told me to get again, and they always say negative. I know this isn't rocket science...you literally pee on the stick when you wake up. How can I be doing it wrong?!?! By the way, these things are expensive!!! 30 something bucks!! Craziness!!!

I do this ovulation nonsense stuff, until I get a negative result. That is if I even get a positive result to begin with. 

But, I will be positive. 

I have to be. 

I know emotions and stress play a part in everything...especially baby making. 

Once I am done with the ovulation kits, we wait.

Wait to find out if this round worked.

Wait to find out if we are gonna be parents. 

Wait.

 

Who ever said baby making was supposed to be romantic?!?!?

That went out the window, when you have scheduled sex nights, given to you by the doctor...

 

The things we do, do have a baby.... or two ;)

{currently}

Not much going on in these parts this week. In fact, it has been oddly quiet. I guess that is good, yes? Always happy with a calm life. And in that calm life, currently as I type this in my freezign cold apartment, waiting to head to a dentist appointment. Trying to tell my self the sounds and noises aren't that bad....but I am sure you know how that goes. Because who honestly enjoys going to the dentist?!?

Drinking // coffee. coffee. coffee

{obviously not taken this morning, but there is this happiness when coffee touches my lips}

Looking Forward To // the holidays. duh. there is nothing better than twinkle lights, christmas music, holiday candles and fragrances, christmas movie with hot cocoa

Wishing // clomid works it magic and we get some good news in the next few months :)

Wearing // wonder unders from lululemon | tennis shoes | a baggy sweatshirt | a scarf | like I said, my apartment is freezing!!

Craving // mexican food and a corona-rita! enough said.

Feeling // on the roller coaster of being a female. My moods the last couple days haven't been the greatest. I am trying my best to keep my bitchiness to myself, but sometimes it doesn't work. And when I'm Alexis {as my dad calls me when I'm bitchy}, I am not talkative or friendly.... please confirm you are like this too and that I am not the only crazy girl out there!!

a happy woman

I saw this on Cupcakes and Cashmere a while back and thought I would share my own answers.
So here goes 8 things a happy woman should have....

a go to drink- besides the obvious water and coffee... I love Malibu Red with 7-Up or Sprite. It's simple, easy, and can be made in the comfort of my own home. But being that isn't very popular when out at a restaurant or bar, I stick with a Long Island ;)

a karaoke song- anything Shania or Kenny. I know all their songs like the back of my hand. Preferably I Feel Like a Women or When The Sun Goes Down.

a uniform- jeans // t-shirt or tank top // flip flops {total California girl right herrre}

a hair stylist they love- this one I have not found yet. If anyone knows of an amazing person in the LA area, that isn't crazy expensive, please please please let me know. I will forever be in your debt.

an exercise routine: running or HIIT {alternating days} along with weights for specific muscle. Mondays- biceps & triceps // Tuesday- abs // Wednesday- legs with no weights // Thursday- back // Friday- shoulders & abs // Saturday- legs with heavy weights // Sunday- day off

a hobby- blogging //  traveling // riding bikes at the beach  // photography //

a best friend- Aarika...I can share everything and anything with her and there is no judgement, ever. We can tell each other how it is, we can speak our mind, we can be mean {unfortunately} but in the end we always have each other's back. We are always there for each other. She is my other half, besides Tony...obvi!! ;)

a healthy sense of self- I am trying my hardest not to compare myself with other women...but being a female is hard, as we all know. I just keep myself surrounded by my biggest supporters and ones that love me. That is how I get through my day. Along with some along time here and there...that is a must, for everyone!